On Change

I don't normally incorporate a whole lot of my personal life into my written blog posts, but today I'm going to make an exception.

I hear a lot of people saying that they are terrified of change, and I'm going to share with you a little secret. I don't understand. Change happens all the time and I think that I would be a lot more afraid - not to mention bored - if things were constantly the same.

I'm going to talk about myself for a minute here, and you're just going to have to bear with me. I am an entirely different person than I was a few years ago or last year or maybe even just a few months ago. It's odd for me to think about, because I would do something and explain it as "out of character for someone like me" but then over time, I would keep doing similar actions and that became my character and that's life, folks. Life is change and that's how we develop as people and I think it's an incredible process and I can't wait to experience more of it because more change means that I'm still alive and kicking.

Today, I am changing again. I used to be the kind of person that was afraid of temporary things but even more afraid of permanence and as a result I lived somewhere along the lines of spontaneity and unfulfilled goals. Shortly, within a few hours, I'll be getting my first tattoo. Pretty permanent if you ask me. I guess I'm still at that stage where I could say, "that's out of character for me." But I don't think it is. I think this is the person I am becoming and this is my character and my character likes making commitments.

Tonight, the boy that I am entirely enamored with, Dylan, is going to ask me to be his girlfriend. It's a long-term commitment and I am going to say yes.

After all, I'm a long-term kind of girl.