I started this blog approximately three months ago and I didn't know anything about myself. To my surprise, telling other people about me has actually taught me a lot about who I am, and I really like that I have these parts underneath my skin that I can share with you guys. Writing this blog has allowed me to embrace my feelings and my thoughts and even just the stupid little things I do, because I want to share them.
I always thought of myself as more or less an actress, playing the part of.. well, whoever the people around me wanted me to be. If people liked quiet and shy, I could be that. Center of attention? I could be that, too. But it's tiring, bending and molding yourself into someone you aren't just to impress the people around you. On top of that, you start to lose who you really are, and I got so lost that it took me two breakups and three months of constant writing to find myself again.
Today, I got out of the shower and got dressed and put my makeup on to the tune of my favorite playlist, at full volume. I danced around my room alone and I sang into my hairbrush. I haven't been that happy and had that much fun alone in a while. In that moment, there was no acting. That was all me. That's what I want from now on.
I\m sick of being an actress. It's time to work on being a person.
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