Lately everything has been feeling awfully temporary to me. I am leaving for Europe in less than six months, and I'll be gone for a year, and so I think I have developed the mindset that nothing in the next year and a half is permanent... maybe nothing at all.
Along with all the excitement of leaving and going to a new country on another continent for a year, there is a certain sense of sadness that comes with too much temporary, not enough permanent. I keep thinking about holidays that I will not be spending at home, and I'll be missing both of my brothers' birthdays as well as my mother's. I'll miss my family, of course, but on the flip side, it'll be nice to be so completely on my own for a while.
And then there's my relationship. We've only been together about a month and a half (officially anyway), and we went into this knowing that I would be leaving in August. Still, it makes me sad to think that this has to end in not even half a year. I'm going to miss him a lot, and it sucks to know that this is temporary, but I guess all I can do - all we can do - is make the best of it while I'm here. The least we can do is make some good memories (I hate the idea of being forgotten).
Don't get me wrong, I am so, so excited to study abroad and live an entirely different life while I'm gone. It will be so much fun to learn another language and another way of life. But I'm also kind of excited to get back so things can start feeling permanent again.
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